So This Is What It Feels Like To Be A Contributing Member of My Family

I have been feeling much better the last couple of weeks. And things have changed dramatically around here. I’m finding that I can do a lot more than I thought after getting the house to the point where a mild level of maintenance is what I have to do each day. Last week I got myself back on my regular Advocare schedule and have been feeling considerably better. I spent a couple of days getting the house in order. And I’ve merely been working on keeping it that way a little bit at a time each day.

I have even begun doing all the evening cooking. Well, I say all of it, but it’s actually just the weeknights. Ron still gets the weekends. Honestly when you are feeling pretty good then just sitting around is difficult. When you have energy again after spending so long with out it then you want to take advantage of it and get up and busy.

So I have a menu chart up on the fridge. I’m not as organized with the cooking yet as I plan to be. But I’m taking this one step at a time. I’m moving into the organization level little by little. The next part of the plan is to add a second sheet to the fridge for a grocery list based on the menu plan. I am enjoying knowing that my family knows what time they can count on dinner every night (5:30). And it’s nice that I’m keeping up on the chores in the kitchen so it’s not always a big mess of dirty dishes. It makes the kids chores of doing the dishes at night much smoother of a process.

I’ve been searching some home organization sites to work into my routine. I just feel more in control. I still have some bad days with my fibromyalgia. But I’ve discovered if I keep on top of my Advocare products and my regular medications I feel almost normal most of the time. This is really what I’ve wanted for so long. I just wanted to be a regular providing member of my family. I wanted to be more of a help than a hindrance. I’ve noticed that Michael and Lauren respond better to the family unit when things are run smoothly with me taking part.

I’m not completely where I want to be yet. Eventually I’d like to be one who can lunch with friends and/or go to church regularly. I’m still on a day to day basis with that part of my life. But the part of my life INSIDE the walls of our home is coming together.

God is good to provide me with the means of access with items that are working wonders for me. I think if you were a member of my family you could see the big difference. The other day Lauren said “You’ve been doing a really good job of being the Mommy lately. You’ve been doing a great job cooking. The living room is staying clean. I noticed you cleaned out the fridge and are keeping up with dishes. And I noticed you organized the closet upstairs. Keep up the good work.” HAHA! And I notice that I’m getting cooperation around here without having to BEG for it or have Ron do the asking. I’ve also picked up on some much needed and greatly appreciated affection from one of my kids. I think they other will come along with time.

I am forever grateful for my friend who told me about Advocare. It’s making a HUGE difference in my life. And I’m not writing this as an Advocare marketing piece. I’m writing it as a way to share the amazing things that are happening for me. After being so sick for so long, I had pretty much given up hope of getting back on a path even close to normal. But God has provided a way. And I’m thankful for my friend who introduced the way to me. I’m winning! And I’m eternally grateful for providing a means to insert me back into my family and my job as homemaker.

Normal Makes Me Furious

Allow me to warn you before you read any further, A few hours ago I posted on Twitter that I was having a pity party. Normally I don’t write when I’m in pity party mode. I have, however, moved on from the pity stage into the angry stage. So the coast may be clear now. There shouldn’t be much whining (notice I said “much”) but I can almost guarantee there will be anger.

I am furious at Fibromyalgia. Normally I just roll with the flow. But when I take too much time to think I remember the days when I was normal. I remember the days of waiting for Ron to get home from work and then suggesting we go to the mall or out to dinner. There were actually days I would get a shower and get out of the house regularly. I know it’s hard to imagine. I even had a job once! It all seems like a lifetime ago but I’m pretty sure it was me. When I see those times in my mind the woman in my images sure looks like me (although I weighed a LOT less). Now I will say this, Advocare has pretty much taken care of the numbing fatigue we battle. However, nothing cures Fibromyalgia. The pain is still there. The depression is still there. The brain fog is still there.

I apologize repeatedly to Ron for getting “stuck” with me. He’s a workaholic with tons of energy to spare. I feel guilty that I can’t get out and do those things that I know he would like to be doing. But bless his heart he is constantly reassuring me that he loves me. He is an incredible caregiver. But I know there are so many things he would love for us to do together. He deserves so much more. (oops a little whining is slipping in here – sorry) He never makes me feel bad about what I can/can’t do. I’m the one who does that enough for both of us. Sometimes I’m so mad at my body that I could spit nails.

And I still have no idea how growing up with a sick mother is going to affect the kids long term. We have tried to keep things as close to normal for them as possible. We’ve worked hard at never allowing my illness to hinder them from experiencing the things they want to do in life. But I’m sure someday I will see something in them that will make me think “if I hadn’t been sick they wouldn’t do/feel/think that”. That’ll make me mad all over again.

So for now I would just like to give Fibromyalgia a swift kick in the backside. Either that or I’d like to wipe my mind clear of those “normal” days so they can’t haunt me now. They are such a tease. And I don’t like it – not even a little bit!

A Free Gift For You as A Thank You From Me

I have been challenged to reach the next income level in Advocare! The challenge is to reach a certain number of orders in product by midnight tonight – EST. I have decided to offer you a special gift if you can help me. This will work out for both of us!

This will be a great time to do some Christmas shopping, stock up on your Spark or other products and ask any questions you might have. If you have not heard of Advocare – it is a health/wellness/weight loss line that was originally created specifically for professional athletes in 1993. However, not long after that it came out of the locker room into our homes. Advocare has numerous professional athletes as UNPAID endorsers. We have a full time Science-Medical Board team that works constantly on making products better to help people live healthier lives.

This line of products have really changed my life. As you know, I have Fibromyalgia. The fatigue that goes along with Fibro has been the thorn in my flesh for the last few years. Advocare Spark has all but wiped that out. Spark is full of vitamins and minerals that get me going in the morning and keep me going all day long. Truly – it has made all the difference in the world for me.

Spark comes in 7 different flavors

Another product that has really helped me feel better is BioTools. The BioTools product work on bringing internal balance to your body systems and work on muscle recovery among other things. However, the greatest thing that BioTools has done for me is balance out my gastrointestinal system. Irritable Bowels Syndrome (IBS) is also a physical condition that usually accompanies Fibromyalgia. BioTools has truly wiped out my IBS. I will never go without it. If you’ve ever been grounded to the house because of IBS then you know what a great relief it is to find something to help.

BioTools - Two products in one package

Now for my special gift for you for helping me today – all orders of $25 or more will receive a free Blender Bottle from me as a special thank you.

A free Blender bottle as a thank you

I can’t tell you how much I thank you for your help. This will mean the world to me. You can order straight from my site. Click any link I’ve included in this post and you’re there. Feel free to ask me any questions.

Living in a Fog

I have mentioned here that Ron and I are doing our own Bible Study here at home on Wednesday nights.  We have been hashing through some stuff. Don’t worry, I’m not gonna bore you with any of our baggage. well, maybe just some of MY baggage. Lord knows I have enough of it.  Last night we covered a million miles of stuff. I told him that I wish he could live just a couple of days inside of my head to see what it’s like to live in a brain similar to swiss cheese and full of smog and fog – all of which goes along with Fibromyalgia. I find that one of the hardest things to describe. It really just seems to come across as an excuse. I understand why it could appear that way. And to be completely honest that ticks me off. Why would anyone make this up? Who COULD make this stuff up? I tried to explain is as if there is a barricade right above the top of my head that keeps any thoughts from escaping or creeping in. But the inside of the brain is best illustrated by these two pictures:

Can't see anything through the fog!

And this is what it looks like when something new tries to get through.

The body language when this is going on is similar to what you see in the movies when a patient is over drugged in one of those mental institutions and they just stare straight ahead but aren’t really looking at anything and don’t seem to hear anything going on around them.

I would love to sit down with someone who could explain to me what exactly is going on in the brain of a fibromyalga patient. Why do we get fibro fog? What does our brain look like on a given day – foggy or otherwise? What is going on up there? It feels like brain cells are dying by the thousands every single day. It’s so mysterious. Sometimes people don’t believe Fibro is a legit illness – that it’s just all in our head. Well, I would say then that that is the ONLY thing in my head. That seems to be the headquarters for the pain, fatigue and fog we experience every day. I wish there was some kind of procedure that could be done – like McDreamy does on Grey’s – that can just be zapped or burned off and destroy Fibro. It’s just such a nuisance.

Living in a fog is not really living! It’s merely existing from one day to the next whether you want to or not. Honestly I’d rather NOT!

Something New….Again

If you remember, last month I had a new treatment for my Fibromyalgia headaches. I have had a number of treatments over the years. I don’t think I could really even list them all. I’ve tried different procedures, treatments and medications. Some have worked and some have not. Last fall I had two separate procedures done to burn the nerves in my neck. That has worked fairly well. However, I was still experiencing debilitating headaches. They weren’t as frequent but they were just as intense when they did come. My terrific pain management doctor suggested a different procedure that would have to be approved by my insurance company. He suggested we try Botox. My appointment was on May 27th. I’ve been waiting to write an update here in order to get the full picture of whether or not it helped me. The first two weeks I didn’t really notice a difference. However, I have noticed in the last couple of weeks that my headaches have decreased. I’ve not had the same intensity of pain. I have gotten headaches and even had one that lasted a few days. But I think I can tell a slight difference. I’m not convinced it is enough of a difference to repeat the process though.

Today I had my monthly follow up visit and asked to have my pain medicine changed. I had been on the previous pain medication for about 3 years and have been noticing for a long time now that it has not been as effective as it was in the beginning. So she switched me to something fairly new called Nucynta. I had never heard of it before. As a matter of fact my regular pharmacy didn’t carry it. The pharmacist called four different pharmacies to locate it for me. It is a narcotic similar to morphine.

I will update in a few weeks to let everyone know how it helps/doesn’t help me. If you have a chronic illness you are, no doubt, skeptical about a new medication. Gone are the days of getting my hopes up and high expectations. Now I just kind of hold out a couple of weeks to see how it’s gonna work. So, at this point I am neutral. I’m not expecting much. I will keep you posted. Cross your fingers.

Let’s Try Something New

I tweeted last night that I was starting two new products this morning to see how my Fibromyalgia responds. I’m excited to see what the changes will be. I’m going to Ohio next week. And I will be having a 3 day yard sale with my mom. Trips are usually enough to do me in. But carrying all my junk up there and then doing a garage sale for 3 days and then traveling back home will be an excellent test to see how I respond to the products. I will report on how I do on them over the next couple of weeks and let you know. I hope that you keep in mind that I am not “selling Advocare” to make money. I’m offering it because it helps me. I see so many people struggling all around me and getting very little help by the regular means. My goal is to offer a little something extra that you can add to your current routine in order to make a difference in your quality of life. Again I repeat, none of this is gonna cure you!!!! My only hope is to offer you the tools to get back into your life like I am. I’ve pretty much been bedridden by FATIGUE for the last year. I am out of bed. That speaks volumes to me. Yes, I still hurt. Uhhhh I have Fibromyalgia. Nothing is gonna change that. I am merely taking my health in my hands and finding something to put side by side with what my doctor is doing for me to produce a better result for ME. OH well, you already knew all of that. These are the products I started this morning.


The first one is BioTools. I believe this product is probably exactly what someone with Fibromyalgia needs. Listen to the description:

For those who do not maintain an active lifestyle, twinges, aches, stiffness and pains may be a common and constant companion. An imbalance in the epigenome is a major contributor to these events. In addition to the BCAAs, the botanicals in BioCharge are known to help correct these imbalances in the epigenome and provide anti-inflammatory actions.

Goodness gracious! Is that us or what??? BioTools comes with two products. It comes with 30 packets of BioCharge powder that you mix with 4 oz (or as much as you want for taste). It contains Amino Acids, Grape Seed, Green Tea, B Vitamins, Taurine and Cat’s Claw. I’m just finishing up my first drink now. As you can see it’s only gonna be healthy. And it tastes pretty good too. The second product that comes in the BioTools package is BioTune. These are capsules containing curcumin, amla, resveratrol, cat’s claw, grape seed extract, zinc, selenium, alpha lipoic acid, boswellic acid, quercetin and green tea extract. The job of the BioTune is to protect the epigenome mentioned above so they can maintain a balance, thus balancing our body to control our aches, pains and stiffness associated with Fibromyalgia and so many other illnesses.

Keep in mind that I am talking about how these products help with my Fibromyalgia. These exact same products are beneficial for many other chronic conditions as well. All of these products are designed to support our bodies and maintain a general overall wellness to our various systems. If you have any questions about a specific condition I will be glad to help you research and contact our medical board members to get answers for you. And of course it’s always good to print off the product information and take it to your doctor to get his/her opinion.

MNS Max 3

The other product that I started this morning is the MNS Max 3. This product is like a super power!! It contains the following products CorePlex®, OmegaPlex®, ProBiotic Restore™, Calcium Plus, Amplify A.T. These are all seperate products but they are prepackaged into small packs for you to take in the morning and then again in the afternoon. The benefits cover everything from appetite control to a sustained release energy. The list of ingredients in this one product is extensive. vitamins A, C, D, E, B-6, B-12, folic acid, niacin, riboflavin, omega-3 fatty acids, astaxanthin, calcium, citrus flavonoids, green tea extract, lutein, lycopene, guarana, biotin, oolong tea, taurine, lactobacillus acidophilus, bifdobacterium, bifidum, artichoke, magnesium, zinc, chromium.

So I’m excited about what the BioTools will do for my body physically. And I’m excited about what the MNS Max 3 will do for my weight control and my stamina. These alone with the Spark. Somebody better watch out!!!

I will keep you informed on my progress – whether good or bad. Although I can’t imagine there would be any bad results. But I’m not gonna lead anyone astray. I am honest and I’m gonna continue being honest with you all too. This is something new. Who knows what it will do. But so far I’ve had NOTHING bad to say about ANY of it!

Advocare Blender Bottle

Now on a final note, remember I am offering a free Advocare Blender Bottle to anyone placing an order in the month of June. We have a number of yummy things to mix and stir. This bottle will make it all so much easier. You can just visit my Advocare Website and place and order. It’s that simple. No money exchanging hands between us. It’s all taken care of for you.

Health, Hope and a Future

If you had a chronic illness and had found a product that was helping you with some of your symptoms and was making you feel better and improving your quality of life would you want to share it? Would you want to shout it from the rooftop for your fellow sufferers? Would you want to tell everyone you know about it and encourage them to try it as well? That’s the position I am in. I understand the apprehension of others to believe such a product exists. Each of us who suffers with a chronic illness of any kind is very wary about the snake oil salesmen out there who are willing to do whatever it takes to make a dollar. Because we are always searching and desiring something that will help us feel better we come across as easy prey to people like this. I understand the apprehension of something new. I understand the cautious attitude that comes along with being open prey. I’ve been there. I’ve been the victim of such snake oil salesmen. I’ve been desperate enough to fall for some of these predators. I’ve wasted money on products that were supposed to “cure” me.

AdvoCare Spark Energy Drink

All of that puts me in an awkward position because I know what all of us who are ill are thinking when we hear the words “I’ve found something that helps me”. When my girlfriend sent me a package in the mail with a letter about this great new product I admit that I was skeptical. My first thought was “yeah right”. I shoved it aside and added it to the category of yet another fake claim. I wasn’t gonna fall for that again. However two things tripped me up this time. Number one it was from a close and personal friend who I have known my entire life. I knew that she was not a snake oil salesman. Number two the ingredients in the products were things I could pronounce and had heard of before. I put the packets aside for a few days and gave all of that some thought. During that period of time I also did some research online. I decided to give the products a shot. I had 3 packets with instructions to use one each day. After the second day I could tell a slight difference. I noticed that I was feeling a bit less fatigued after drinking it. I looked forward to trying the third one. I could really notice a marked difference in the before and after. After those three packets were gone I paid attention to how I felt in the  days following – when I didn’t have them to drink. I noticed each day I seemed to be slipping a little more back to my old self. I talked with Ron and told him about how I felt before and after the Spark. I talked to my friend who sent them to me, Tina. I asked her more about her experience with the product line, AdvoCare. I know her well and knew that she has suffered with migraines for years. I was curious what she would have to say about her headaches. If you know me then you know that headaches are something that I am very familiar with. When she told me that she had not had a migraine in 3 months I was especially intrigued. If this had been a stranger I probably wouldn’t have believed them. But because we have a history I believed her. I have no reason not to. And at this point I had experienced the difference myself.

I am on Twitter 24/7. Most of my friends on Twitter are fellow Spoonies, like me. I began thinking about what a tremendous gift this product and complete product line could be. If anyone knows me personally I hope that they know that I want nothing more than to help others. I believe the purpose behind the struggles in my life, including my Fibromyalgia, is to help and minister to others in similar situations as me. I knew if this was available to my friends their quality of life could be improved as well. I talked to Ron and we decided that helping others is what God has called me to do through my illness. We decided that I could be do that by sharing my experience and providing the opportunity with fellow spoonies around me that I come in contact each day. So I have now been an AdvoCare Distributor for the last 2 weeks. I have been sending out samples of Spark to those I know could benefit. My heart is soft toward all of those in my plight. I want to shout it from the rooftops that I have something that can help. I want to tell everyone about it. I am not a snake oil salesman. This is not a means to make money. The money is truly the last thing on my list. I only want to help my friends to feel better. It’s that simple. The product line is endless. There is something for everything. Spark has lit a spark in me. It has given me energy back. I call it a glass of energy. The last year has been a hard year for me because of my Fibro fatigue. But the Spark has truly gotten me moving again. I am not 100% better. My Fibromyalgia has not been cured. I am not pain free every day. I could not go out tomorrow and run a marathon. But I feel better. If you suffer from a chronic illness then you know any degree of feeling better is a victory.

Advocare Blender Bottle

I want to help you. If you have not already received a sample packet from me please let me know. I would be glad to send you one. And each person who places an order on my AdvoCare site in the month of June will receive a gift from me. I will send you an Advocare Blender Bottle free. Advocare is a product I believe in and all I want to do is share it with you. If you look in the left sidebar of my blog you will see the Advocare logo. Under the logo it says the words Health, Hope and a Future. That’s what it is providing for me. And it’s what I want to share with you. You can click on that logo at any time and it will take you directly to my Advocare site where you can place an order.